Hello! Welcome Back! As some of you may know from me doing my monthly music favorite playlists, music is a big part of my life. When I was 9 years old I took after my grandfather and started playing the flute, I continued to do that for 9 years. I went to my first concert when I was about 13 years old, shout to the jonas brothers. Music has always been apart of my life in some form, and I think it can be extremely powerful. I believe music can heal the soul and that everyone should get to experience the power of music in some form. I was lucky enough to experience it just this past weekend when I saw Justin Timberlake live on his Man Of The Woods Tour in Philadelphia, PA. Today, I want to discuss my experience and how the power of his music helped me.
Before I get into the actual concert experience, I want to give you a little back story on where I was in life leading up to this show. First off, I have been a massive fan of Justin since I was a young girl. Such a big fan that I could share some really embarrassing stories about myself from when he was in N’sync and I was 3 or 4 years old, but we will save that for another time. I truly don’t remember a time in my life where I WASN’T a fan of him. This was my second time seeing him live, first time being on his last tour The 20/20 Experience, it was a dream come true as was this past weekend. This past year and the beginning of 2018 were pretty tough for me mentally, especially 2017. I was in the worst mental state I have ever been in, I couldn’t see the point. I had no hope and I honestly didn’t care about getting better, since I couldn’t see the point in anything getting better seemed well pointless. I didn’t have anything to look forward too and part of me though getting better wasn’t an option, but something always gave me a spark of hope and that was Justin. On my worst days, I would put on one of my N’sync or Justin concert DVD’s, and even if it was just temporary bliss I would start to feel better. I didn’t know when Justin was gonna release music next, it had already been almost four years since his last album, but something inside of me had a feeling it was coming sooner rather then later so I made sure to hold on. Hold on to the hope of seeing him again. I understand how that might sound silly to some people, because he doesn’t know me but having been a fan of him for so long it feels like he always shows up when I need it. I believe that has to do with the grace of God, but again that’s for another time. I was right about new music coming sooner rather then later, because he released his single Filthy at the beginning of January followed by 3 other songs leading up to the release of his latest album Man Of The Woods. As I mentioned earlier, this sparked something in me and I felt like God was telling me it was my time. My time to start feeling better for good, I had Him and Justin I could do it. I could become happy and go after my dreams. The Power Of Music. The stars all aligned and I was lucky enough to get tickets to his Man of The Woods Tour, I couldn’t believe it. It didn’t seem real that I could feel that type of happiness again, because I hadn’t felt it in so long. For the next six months, that was my motivation to stay true to my progress and to keep working on my happiness. I, of course had slip ups but nothing I wasn’t able to quickly come back from.
Those six months thankfully went by in a flash and the day was here. I was going to see Justin with my best friend in the entire world. It still didn’t seem real, I didn’t allow myself to think about it much because I would get too emotional. I was also afraid that if I thought about it too much, it would end up not being real so I did my best to keep myself together. That obviously didn’t work because the second he came out, I started sobbing. Like ugly sobbing, head in my hands shaking sobbing. I was so overwhelmed with happiness that I couldn’t help but cry. This was the dream I would dream when things were so bad and I needed something to help me hang on. Only difference was it wasn’t just a far off dream anymore, it was reality he was there. I was there, with him. I could feel my best friend rubbing my elbow as a way to say, she’s there she gets it. She knew first hand how bad things were inside my head and she knew how much he meant to me, after all the first thing she said to me when we met almost five years ago was “wanna go see justin timberlake?” I remember looking at her while I was crying and then looking back at Justin and thinking “I’m so glad i’m alive” That’s The Power Of Music. As the night carried on I could feel myself healing even more, through new songs and old songs that brought me back to when I was younger. I could see the light at the end of the dark tunnel, I felt myself come alive. The girl who gets anxious in social settings worrying about what people will think, had no care in the world. I was free from the demons in my head that hold me back, I was myself in my purest form.
As I sit here in my tour t-shirt I realize the power of music brought me back from darkness. The power of music allowed me to heal broken pieces of myself. I pray that everyone gets to experience the power of music in their lifetime. It’s a feeling I chase after and long for daily. It doesn’t always have to be seeing someone live in concert, even just sitting in my car blasting music helps me. I hope you all find an artist that lights a fire in you the way Justin does for me. I hope the power of music brings friends into your life that understand every part of you like it did for me. I truly believe music has the power to change the world, it’s changed my world so many times. I hope this post brought you some comfort or some inspiration, thank you for stopping by. Until next time….
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