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My Faith Journey

Hey Guys! Welcome Back! I don’t usually post on Fridays or on such a whim, but something is pulling on my heart and I need to let it out. That has helped me a lot in the past and it seems to have gone over well with you guys. I do want to say first off this post is centered around religion and my faith (more so my faith, but that obviously coincides with religion.) This is in no way me trying to convert anyone to my religion. You’re faith journey is yours and I have no right in trying to sway you one way or another. However, I am going to talk today about my journey in faith and about where I am currently with my faith. I’m gonna discuss the highs and lows I’ve had with my faith, and everything in between.

I have been a Christian my entire life, specifically Presbyterian which is just a denomination of Christianity. Each denomination is a little different, with slightly different beliefs. Presbyterian in my opinion, is the most laid back and “accepting” denomination. I’ll get more into this later on. I’ve mentioned this in other posts but, I grew up going to church. Every single Sunday, I’d go to Sunday School and then as I got older I’d sit through the service with my parents. When I went to college, that’s about when I stopped going to church, for two reasons. The first reason being, I never took the time to find a church at school, I was either busy with homework or my job that I just never looked. Second being, I never connected with the pastor at my church so I thought that maybe church just wasn’t for me, not realizing every pastor is different.

I never really thought much about my faith until I was about 19 or 20. It was just something that was just apart of me, I didn’t necessarily practice it. I didn’t try to learn about it more. I just took what I learned at church and carried on with my life. Secretly that made me feel like a “fake” Christian. I never admitted that to my friends or family because I thought it would make them love me less. My practices of faith felt forced because I didn’t understand anything I was taking in but, I didn’t want to let my friends or family down. If i’m being honest here, until I started to deal with hardships I took God and my faith for granted.

I’m very vocal on here about my mental health and it wasn’t until I started to suffer with mental health issues that I started to get to know myself and my faith. I began to turn to God more, turn to the word of God more and asked people to explain it to me. I started listening to more faith based music, because I love music and wanted to absorb his presence through song. To this day, that’s the most moving way for me to practice my faith. I started to really figure out what MY faith was and what I believed in and how I wanted to practice it. Ultimately, my faith didn’t change much from when I was growing up. I think I just became more accepting of people who were “different.”

Like I mentioned earlier, I grew up a Presbyterian and I still go to a Presbyterian church. That being said, I don’t necessarily believe in denominations within the Church. I feel that just gives you one more way to separate everyone. I am a Christian plain and simple. I don’t need all these rules to follow on “how to be a Christian” I just love God and treat humans like humans and let God be the one to judge someone.

Now, at 24 and on the uphill of a two plus year battle with depression my faith is a strong as ever. I still don’t really go to church, although I do connect with my new pastor very well and would like to get back into going. I still don’t read my bible on a daily basis, but the word of the Lord does resonate with me more when I do read it. I’ve hit rock bottom more then once in those two years of struggles but, every time I came back a better person with more light in my heart. I fully give God all the credit for that, because it would have been SO easy to have let my heart become dark. That doesn’t lead to a happy life though, so I turned to my Lord and let him put light back in my life. Each time I hit rock bottom, I’m reminded that God is turning me into the woman HE wants me to be. The only opinion that matters is your opinion of yourself and God’s opinion of you. That’s really hard for me to remember, actually my best friend sent me this verse this morning that goes perfectly with what I just said it is,

Romans 9:20-21

“But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, ‘Why did you make me like this?’ Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?”

My journey in faith has taught me so much, especially in the last year, I’ve never wavered in the idea that God loves me and that God has a plan for me, but I do know that, it can get REALLY hard to accept that we aren’t meant to know the plan. I never doubted that God was there, but I know it can be so hard to understand why all these bad things happen in life, such unfair cruel things. How can God let these things happen, and honestly I don’t have the answers. I’m not suppose to have those answers. I get how tough it can be to hand over all your trust to “something you can’t see” but that’s what having faith means. Trusting and believing in things you can’t see.

I was really inspired to write this post by Tori Kelly’s new gospel album Hiding Places. Like I said earlier, music is the most moving form of praise for me and, as I was sitting here listening to her sing about her faith, I felt God place his hand on my heart and tell me to share my journey in faith with all of you. I’m growing in my faith everyday and I’m extremely proud of that. I’m centering my life more and more around the happiness God wants me to feel. I’m centering it around the love God wants me to show myself and everyone around me. I know there will be hard times still to come, things I don’t understand but faith will lead me to the other side. We are all masterpieces, still being molded into this grand piece of art. My journey is still being written but this is where I am in my faith journey as of right now. I think now is a good time for me to wrap this up and stop rambling, so thank you for stopping by. Until next time…

Be Nice. Be Good.

Mich x.

p.s. if you want me to write a post on the all the darkness I experienced during the depths of my depression, and you feel it would help you please let me know in the comments.

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Hi! I’m Michelle, but you can call me Mich. I’m just your normal 23 year old trying to figure out life and thought I’d share some of my experiences and interests with the world. This blog will cover all things under the sun from makeup favorites to mental health to religion and everything serious or not so serious in between! I want us to build a little community filled with love and support so please leave me comments and hit that follow button on your way out. This blog has a very special place in my heart and feels like a important part of my path in life so I hope you stay a while and check out what it’s like to be Simply Michelle.

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  1. I find it so interesting how differently people react to hardships and faith. I was brought up in Catholic schools and going to church and I was baptised and had my holy communion. However, since my early teens my life has honestly just kind of been horrible thing after horrible thing happening and it completely made me lose any sort of belief I had in any sort of higher power as it made me feel as if I was being punished when I’d done nothing wrong. I find it admirable that you’ve been able to keep your faith throughout such a hard time and thank you so much for sharing your story. I wish you strength and happiness in the rest of your journey! And lots of healing, of course.
    Alice Xx

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    • thank you, i think it’s amazing how you still show so much respect even though our views are different. it’s really appreciated, i wish you the exact same in your journey. hoping your upcoming surgery goes well xx

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  2. I can’t believe this. A post that I’ve got scheduled for tomorrow is all about how I’m struggling with my relationship with God. This post so well written and I’m very glad you shared this 💙

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    • Thank you! I will have to check out your post tomorrow! Our relationship with God is going to have ups and it’s going to have downs. some of the strongest faith based people I know have had a lot of struggles in their relationship with God. So just keep searching for him, He’s there. I promise he’s there 💓

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  3. This was a really interesting post – I’ve always been really fascinated by religion (I even took extra religious studies in school!) Although I probably wouldn’t class myself as religious or part of any religion personally. I was Christened and I do believe in “something” but I’m trying to figure out what. Posts like these are great but I can’t stand the pushy people who force it down your throat xxx

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  4. Hey Michelle (new blog follower here😁) thank you for being bold and honest about your journey, these type of posts really touch people in many ways. You were so honest, it made me want to share a bit of my journey with you too.

    I too am Christian and I don’t like to think of myself as religious because the concept comes with the idea of rules. Instead I think of myself as a Christian who has a building relationship with Jesus and loves everyone for who they are, like you said, it’s not our place to judge and we must respect others.

    At one point, I struggled with my faith because I couldn’t find a job. It’s been 2 years and 40 rejections, no job. Never once doubted God but I needed his guidance even more. Once I turned to God I realized he was leading me to blogging. Cool how things work out. Keep faith and patience and everything else will fall in place.

    Natonya | http://www.justnatonya.wordpress.com

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    • Thank you!! Followed you back, your journey sounds similar to mine. For so long I acted like I had a dream and knew what I wanted to do but in reality I had no clue and like you said, it turns out he was leading me to blogging. To share stories like this one and show what trust in God can do, without pushing it on others. I’m so glad you enjoyed this post and thank you for sharing part of your journey with me. sending you lots of love xx

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  5. What a pretty blog and good for you! I’m hoping no one said anything discouraging bc you are on the right track. Keep going. I had depression twice in my life and you just gotta stay close to Him through it! There isn’t anything else worth living for. But remember just getting to church once is going to make the next Sunday easier. I love what you say here ❤

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    • thank you ❤️ everyone has left lovely comments just like yours. i’m hoping to start going to church more, my church has two pastors and they alternate each week. I don’t connect with one of them, but she’s leaving at the end of the month. hopefully i connect well with the next one we get. I agree, he will 100% get you through everything and anything❤️

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  6. I have also struggled with depression. Initially, in my beginning of my faith journey, I went to a Catholic church, but since then I have been to an Evangelical Free church and now to a Baptist church. However, like you, I don’t really consider myself to be an “Evangelical” or a “Baptist,” just a born again Christian who has found God’s love to be amazing!

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  7. “I know there will be hard times still to come, things I don’t understand but faith will lead me to the other side.” Like you, I’m going through some challenges right now and my faith is being tested. I still don’t understand his plans. It’s really difficult to see the light beyond this tunnel. I just kept telling myself that He is God, He is in control, and He has a beautiful plan for me. Your post brought tears to my eyes…….thank you so much for sharing your story. God Bless:)

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    • this is one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me, oh my gosh thank you. keep telling yourself those things over and over because it’s true! he is not going to let you fall, and if he does it’s because he has something so incredibly beautiful for you to see once you get back up. sending you lots of love 💓

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  8. Thanks for sharing your experiences. It’s very interesting to see other people’s outlook on religion and faith. I have always been spiritual, always went to Baptist church, then Catholic education through elementary all the way through college. I actually don’t believe in God, in the same way you do, but I can say that your struggles have purpose and meaning. When I had depression I’d ask the same questions until I found my own answers for my journey, turned everything around. Keep on keeping on and I hope you find your own special ways to honor God 🙂

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  9. This was fascinating for me. I’m not religious at all. And don’t really believe in anything, religious, spiritual or otherwise. But I love studying religion, religious architecture and that kind of thing. I’ve always thought that I didn’t connect with anything because I struggle to have the level of faith required to believe in something so uncertain. The ability to keep the faith is something I really respect in people who have strong beliefs. I’m really glad your faith is still strong and helped you through tougher times. 💖
    Sophie
    http://www.glowsteady.co.uk

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    • thank you, that really means a lot to me. i totally understand the struggle it can be since a higher power isn’t something that is tangible. I really struggled with the thought that i wasn’t connecting “well enough” but over the years i’ve learned my relationship with God is only gonna work if I do it in a way that’s natural for me. again, thank you for these sweet comment xx

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