Hello! Welcome Back! Gosh does it feel good to be back writing, I know I only took a few days of a break but I still missed it. I swear stepping away from your blog for a few days can really help you come up with new ideas to write about. How was everyone’s Christmas? I’m kind of thinking about doing a “what I got for Christmas” type of a deal over on my Instagram stories, so be sure to follow me over there if you want to see everything I got. Today, I wanted to take a little bit of time to reflect on this past year. I think posts like these can be really helpful, because you’re able to physically see the type of growth you made over the year. This past year was actually really good for me, that’s not to say I didn’t have my struggles because of course I did, I actually think I started the year struggling. The end of my year has had struggles I never thought I’d experience with my brother going through some health issues, but as a whole I will look back on this year overall as a good year in my life. You guys know how much I like to talk so, before we end up being here until like 2020 let me just jump into it.
Looking Back on 2018.
When planning this post I decided I was going to write about my top 5 achievements and it was actually kind of hard for me to narrow it down to just five. I’ve really started to appreciate the small achievements I’ve made almost more than the big ones, because those small achievements helped lead up to the big achievements. My first achievement of this past year was, getting on medication for my depression and anxiety. This is in no way me telling people that medication is the answer, because for you it may not be. However, it’s not even the actual act of being on medication that’s an achievement to me. It’s the fact that I spoke up and said “I need to start taking care of myself and I can’t fix this on my own anymore.” We were never meant to handle this world on our own and I knew that, I was always accepting of others getting help but for so long I was too afraid to do it for myself. Finally learning and accepting that it was okay for me to get help and that it’s okay that for right now I need a pill to help keep my serotonin up was literally life changing. As of right now, I’m staying on my medication until at least April due to my age and I’ll reevaluate once that time comes on what I want to do.
This is more of a highlight than an achievement because I didn’t put any work into this happening but, I met my niece Reia for the first time. If you read my post from a couple weeks ago on how to make long distance friendships last, you’ll know that my best friend (Reia’s mom) lives across the country from me so our visits are few and far between. I truly can’t explain the feeling of seeing this little human that you’ve watch change from a new born to a one year old on Facebook in the flesh. Being able to hug her, hold her hand as she walked, and kiss her chubby cheeks was the best thing in the world. It’s honestly making my heart hurt knowing how long I have to wait to see her and my best friend again. I’ve learned that your friends having babies is really the best of both worlds, because you reap the benefits of babies while still being able to hand them off when they aren’t all rainbows and sunshine.
In terms of my job, I’ve had a good year. I was actually planning out an upcoming blog post, where I’m going to compile all of my favorite blog posts from the year into one place. While I was doing that I came across a post, where I mentioned I was making only 9 dollars an hour and working only 27 hours a week. Fast forward to now, I’ve increased my hourly rate and I’ve increased my number of hours which obviously increases the amount in my paychecks. Not only that, I’ve increased my responsibility. I do ordering for the store, I have helped schedule interviews for new employees and then trained them so that they are all up to speed on how the store works. I’m my bosses right hand man and I’m really happy with my job. I feel very appreciated and valued which is more important than the amount of money I make. I have really come to know what’s important to me and happiness in what I’m doing needs to be at the forefront of my life. I would much rather enjoy my job and make less money than make more money and absolutely hate going to work everyday.
This is something I’m really proud to be writing, I learned how to stand up for myself more this past year. Being a people pleaser I never want to disappoint people. In the past I would put aside what I believe is right just to please a loved one. I’ve gotten better at NOT doing that. I’ve started to stand my ground and say that this is my life and I’m going to live it how I want on my timeline. The people that truly love me will respect that and stand by my side through the journey. I never stood up for myself before because I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, but I can’t be a door mat. I’ve had to explain to people that just because YOU don’t see my progress doesn’t mean I’m not making any which I’m glad I’ve done. I got tired of people thinking I’m not doing anything with my life because it’s not what they want me to do. Always stand up for what you want, it may sound selfish but it’s your life and no one else’s.
My last achievement for the year is one that could honestly bring me to tears but hopefully I don’t get too emotional writing this. This past year is when ‘Simply Michelle‘ was born, and man I could not be prouder. The growth that this blog has had from a statistics standpoint is still small on the grand scheme of all the blogs out there but, it’s also full of numbers I never thought I’d reach. This blog makes me into this confident, sure of herself boss woman and I love that. It proves to me what I’m capable of. In my real life, I can be very shy and crippled with self doubt but creating Simply Michelle has shown me a new side of myself. This side of me has her shit together a lot more than people might think, and it’s nice to have that to balance out when I do get those moments of crippling self doubt. From the beginning I knew I wasn’t going to be an overnight success and I was truly okay with that I still am, it’s made the hard work I put in really mean something to me. Even though I knew I wasn’t going to go from 0-100, I still chose to set goals for myself so I had something to work towards and improve on. Every goal I’ve set since Simply Michelle was born has been achieved and I am so f’ing proud of that. I’ve had people that I know in my personal life, from college and old childhood friends tell me how much they enjoy my blog and ask for help on different topics and that’s the greatest feeling. That’s what I always wanted from this blog, for others to know that they aren’t alone and always have someone rooting for them. I’ve never been so proud of doing something that has the potential of failing and that scares me so much because of how badly I want it to work out.
Well, that about wraps up this year. What a year it’s been, here’s to more growth in all area’s of life. 2018 is the first year in a while that I was able to look in the mirror and not completely despise the person looking back at me. What was your biggest achievement of this year, please leave it in the comments so I can give you all the praise you deserve. Thanks for stopping by, until next time…
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