Hello! Welcome Back and Happy New Year! I can’t believe we are in 2019. I know I’ve been saying that in all of my end of 2018 posts but seriously, it’s just so surreal to me. Anyways, I’m sure we have all been hearing a lot of talk about this whole “new year, new me” mindset. Personally, I really dislike that mindset and here’s why. I have to work very hard on believing in myself. For some reason (maybe because woman are taught to not believe in themselves?) I have a really hard time thinking highly of myself, or more so thinking I am enough. I’ve done a lot of work on learning that I am enough in 2018 and it’s something that I want to continue in 2019. So this “New Year, New Me” mindset makes me feel that the old us, wasn’t good enough and that we need to make a total 360° change now that it’s January 1st. That doesn’t mean that I don’t think we shouldn’t strive to be a better version of ourselves, I think we should do that everyday without a new year starting but, changing ourselves completely.. that’s what I don’t like. I am good enough the way that I am, you are good enough the way you are. This is why my motto or mantra whatever you’d like to call it for this year is New Year, Same Me just….growing. In this journey of continuing to grow as a young woman, I have set some goals for myself. I don’t really believe in setting resolutions, because again I think it comes from a place where we have this feeling that we need to change who we are and be this totally different person. Every other year, I would say that it’s my resolution to start working out but thats just not realistic for me because I hate exercising. I would stick to it for a few days but since it would come from a place of feeling like I HAD too I would give up on it, then I’d beat myself up for already failing at my resolution. So, this year I’m making goals that will in turn help me be the best version of myself. Total side note, I was talking to my fellow blogger friend Sophie on twitter yesterday about how hard it is to write short posts…so Sophie if you’re reading this, I haven’t even gotten into the point of this post and I’m already at 400 words. #longblogpostclubforlife Okay, okay I’ll get into it now.. these are a few of my goals for the new year.
Learn To Not Be So Hard On Myself
I don’t know about you but, I’m literally my own worst enemy. I try to build my life and my personality around being kind but when it comes to myself… I set such unrealistic goals that lead to me beating myself up. I set myself up for self sabotage, and I find that really sad. One place that I’m really going to work on this bad habit is within my blog, I really wanted to get this post up on New Years Day but clearly that didn’t happen. My whole family was home and I wanted to spend some time with them, so I worked on this post but didn’t force myself to finish it. Usually I would be really hard on myself about that, saying things to myself about how people aren’t going to continue to read my blog if I have too many days in between my uploads. I plan to learn that while I do my best to treat my blog like a business and think of it as one, I’m still a human and blogging is a lot of work. It’s okay if I upload a day, two days or ten days in-between each posts. I love my blog, and I love working on it..it’s a really great creative outlet for me but let’s be real I can’t burn myself out on something that isn’t making me money (yet). That being said, I also can’t burn myself out on something is making me money and I have to accept that it’s okay to say “no I’m not going to work on that today I need to rest.”
Triple My Yearly Views
I didn’t really mean for this to turn into goals that I have for my blog but I guess that’s what happens when your blog is your baby. I’ve spoken about what my views for 2018 were on my twitter, but I have decided that I’m gonna leave the number out of today’s post. I don’t ever want to contribute to someone’s self-doubt knowing how much I struggle with the exact same issue. I will just say that, I want to triple the amount of views that I got in 2018. I was only gonna stick to doubling it but I want to start the year off with dreaming big and believing in myself so I’m speaking tripling my views into existence.
I honestly can’t tell you the last time I traveled, I mean I went to New York City this past fall but I don’t really consider that traveling because it was a day trip and NYC is only two hours away from me. I want to actually travel more this year, and explore more of this world. I know that costs money so I’ll start with exploring more of my country before I run across overseas, we will leave that for 2020. Compared to other years, I can already check this goal off as completed because I’ll be traveling cross country to be apart of my best friends wedding. I’ve already got it in my mind to write a blogpost about that trip and I can’t wait to share it with you guys. I would love to have other trips this year, finances allowing.
Find A Church I Connect With
I’ve not been shy when speaking about my faith here on my blog, in my Faith Journey I mention how for a while I didn’t connect with my church and how it really made me feel like a poor Christian. I really haven’t been to my church much in the past few years and while, I don’t think it makes me a bad Christian I would like to find a church I connect with. I think the idea of having people that believe the same things you do and live their lives around the same sets of morals as you, makes the growing up process easier. One of the issues I have with my church, is I feel people go out of habit and not because they really connect with what is being said by the pastor. I’m at an age now where I can find my own church family, I know who I am more and what I’m looking to get from my relationship with God. I’ve never looked for a new church so, if you have and you have any suggestions on where to start please let me know!
Learn Complete & Total Self-Love
I made a lot of progress in 2018 on my journey to self-love and I’m really proud of that. However, since my self-hatred was so deeply rooted, I still have work to do. I’m hoping that with me continuing to practice the same things as I did in 2018 and adding in some new ones this year, I’ll be able to achieve complete and total self-love. This goal is part of why I want to find a church I connect with, I think having a church family will really help me move forward in my self-love journey. This goal also ties in with my first goal of being less hard on myself. If I have the patience and grace with myself that I give to others, I’ll be able to see myself and my worth for what it truly is. I’m really excited to continue this journey of self-love, it still feels foreign but it also makes me very grateful which I think we could all benefit from feeling more of.
Those are my goals for the new year.. do you see now why I called this post New Year, Same Me…well Kinda? I don’t want to be a “New Michelle” 2018 taught me that I genuinely like her as she is, I have area’s that I can grow and improve in but so does everyone. What are your new year’s goals? How do you feel about the whole New Year, New Me mindset? Does it inspire you, or make you feel inferior? Let me know down in the comments.
Also, I don’t know if you’ve noticed I’ve got a new theme..what are your thoughts on it? Thanks for stopping by….until next time,
Be Nice. Be Good.