Hey guys! Hope you’re having a good week! For my non american readers, you may not know that Thanksgiving is this coming Thursday. That means it’s officially the start of the holiday season, and I could not be more excited. Last year I did a post like this around Thanksgiving and I thought it’d become a nice tradition here on my blog.
Whether you celebrate Thanksgiving or not it’s always nice to slow down and remember all you have to be thankful for. Life can get so busy and hectic that we only notice the things our lives are lacking. If we reassess for a moment, we can find that we have a lot of things in this life to give thanks for. So without further ado, what i’m thankful for 2019 edition.
This year has been an incredible year in terms of friendships. My heart has had the honor of growing with love for friends old and new. Friendships that I had let fade out, circled back with an unbreakable force. I was blessed with the ability to visit my best friend out in Montana. I feel like an equal to all of my friends, which I believe is a huge part of a successful friendship.
One of the biggest triggers in my depression is the feeling of loneliness. When I graduated college and moved home, I had no one around me. I had no company that was my age, with similar struggles or even similar humor. I now have found my people here at home. Through my bible study I have found woman who I can be myself with, while also growing in my faith.
Through years of negative self talk I had convinced myself that I wasn’t fun company to have around. That people could see my depression on my face and wouldn’t want to be friends with me because of it. Being so open about my struggles and still having this new group of woman accept me regardless has been so rewarding.
So far my list isn’t much different than last year, but just bare with me. This holiday season is really special to me for one particular reason. My brother.
I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this here on my blog but this time last year my older brother was battling cancer. Yep. The dreaded C word. It was something I never imagined my family would have to deal with. My brothers treatment ended at the beginning of the year and He’s been in great health ever since. I’m incredibly grateful that cancer is now in the past.
The best way I can describe what my brother being cancer free means to me is like this. My brother lights up a room when he enters it with his effortless humor. This time last year we were in the thick of his treatment and cancer had stolen that light from him. I’m so thankful that this Thanksgiving, He has his light back. I pray that disease never steals his light again and that He can continue to light up every room he enters.
If you are new to my blog, I started going to therapy back in June. It was the best decision I could have ever made for myself. I am still currently seeing my therapist and I go once every two weeks. For me personally, my therapist being a faith based therapist has been incredibly helpful for me.
I’ve spoken a lot about my faith recently and how much it’s impacted me. Having someone encourage me in my faith but ALSO acknowledge that believing in God doesn’t just make mental illness disappear has let me experience healing I never felt before. I feel nothing but acceptance, and a genuine desire from her for me to view myself the way the Lord views me. I’m not sure if I’d be here today if I never started going to therapy.
Like I mentioned above, I’ve spoken about my faith a lot lately but I have to mention it once more. I am still figuring out this whole fully walking with Jesus thing because until a couple months ago I had never let Jesus in. I believed with my whole heart but I still had a wall up. I’m so thankful that Jesus waited for me to break down that wall. That He never gave up on me, and kept calling for me when I would constantly ignore him. He waited patiently for me to say “I truly can’t do this on my own, I need YOU.”
I still have a lot of growing to do in my faith, it’s a never ending journey. However, I truly believe that in certain areas of my life God had made me a completely new person. He has broken me down to dust, and rebuilt the woman writing for you now. Even with my struggles, I like this woman he’s building.
Don’t tell me you expected me to do a post about what I’m thankful for without mentioning you guys!? I could never. From the bottom of my heart, I appreciate you all.
I’m incredibly hard on myself which meant I lived majority of my life inside a bubble. This blog is the first leap of faith I took where I wasn’t sure if I was gonna be any good at it. I still wonder if I’m doing it right. I think a lot of us bloggers wonder that because the industry changes so quickly. It’s hard to keep up with the changes when blogging isn’t your full time gig. However, you all keep coming back every week.
Sharing my stories & my passions with you all truly feels like what I was put on this earth to do. So for you guys to continually come back, read and leave sweet comments for me means everything to me. Thank you.
What are YOU Thankful for?
Even if Thursday is just a regular Thursday for you, what’s something that you are thankful for this year? Let me know down in the comments, I love chatting with you guys! My next post will be the start of “The 12 Days of Blogmas” and I’m so excited! So be sure to come back for that! Thanks for stopping by, until next time….Be Nice. Be Good.